Life before –
Don’t wake me up early in the morning – OK.
I want Khaman & Aloo-Puri for breakfast – OK.
I want to see my friend – OK go.
I want to go for a movie – OK go.
I want to do shopping – OK go.
I want a bike – OK let’s buy it.
I want to eat sev-puri – OK go.
I want to go to Nani-ghar – OK go.
I don’t want to go to school today – OK don’t go.
I don’t want to shower today – OK.
I want to eat at Chinese restaurant tonight – OK lets go.
I want new earrings today – OK come to the shop in the evening.
I will not buy any groceries, no matter how urgently you want – OK don’t go.
I will not do any dusting today – OK don’t do it.
I want to work as a teacher – Ok go for it.
I want a new dress for every Saturday parents-teacher meeting – OK.
Not only material things but even the wishes like –
I want to top in fashion designing – I achieved it.
I want to be friends with someone & un-friend with someone – It happened.
I want to be the best dressed amongst all my friends in the party – Yes, I was.
I want compliments on my new heels and my nail-paint – Got plenty of them.
I want this boy to run behind me for my attention & I will not give a damn to him – Not only him but his friends also ran behind me!!!
I will prepare a dish & everyone will love it – Everyone licked their fingers.
All my small-small wishes and wants were always fulfilled as if God and my parents were there “only” to make me happy.
Life Now –
I have wishes & wants but not all of them are fulfilled.
I don’t want to work – I HAVE to for our financial security and my mental balance.
I want my family here with me always – Not possible.
I want my childhood friends here – Not possible.
I want my in-laws to live with me, “happily” – Not possible.
I want PK to find a job that he desires – Still struggling.
I want to fly to India every 6 months at least – Not possible.
I want to shop whenever/whatever I want – Not possible.
I want to drive – stupid driver’s license has become a headache.
Take any of the example from my life before – Not possible.
heck..not even a single Sev-Puri wish can be fulfilled as easily as before!!
Life has become so unpredictable now unlike before, when I used to think about something and it used to be in my hands before I even ask about it.
Isn’t it my parents mistake that they dint made me experience any hardships of life?? They dint made me realize that there are always ups AND downs TOGETHER in life, life is not always about ups & ups. That’s why now if I am told “NO” for anything I just cannot take it, I feel angry, I feel like that’s not possible, I have always got what I want, how can I be denied of something??
July month is also over. With lots of ups & downs last couple of months, I am hoping and praying for happy and healthy start of August. Haaah.. whom I am kidding. Remember I prayed for happy July also but see what happened?? I am seriously scared of life, it has changed the role and now only knows how to throw challenges in front of me. Life has forgotten that TP was so much used to of playing in love, pamper, success and happiness that she doesn’t knows how to handle these tough challenges.