GP advised me to see the specialist just to take the second opinion on my ultrasound results. GP said that I have fatty liver tissues which often happen because of eating unhealthy food. Apart from that I have PCOS.. I have to start working out & eat healthy to cure this. Working out – haven’t started yet, packing up the boxes itself is a work out for 2-3 weeks now until we move. Have started eating salads & soups for lunch. I am avoiding eating anything with cheese like pizza, pasta, burgers etc..
Well..This is not why I started writing this post. I have to tell you about this specialist. He is from Delhi. From his name itself PK & I were guessing that this name sounds like a Chaalu-type guy. PK had to attend some important meeting in his office, so I decided to see the doctor alone. Although PK was feeling very bad, he was willing to be with me I forced him saying I will be able to manage alone, I just have to take second opinion of this doctor. Not a big deal.
After waiting for 10-15 minutes, doctor called me. He was being over polite, asking details like which part of India I am from & all that. He asked me to lie down for checking. I was bit confused as my GP has never checked me like this but still I lied down after taking out my overcoat as it is very thick and bulky. I was still wearing my cardigan. I was pretty sure that if I will feel uncomfortable I will just leave his cabin right away. These were instructions by PK as well.
He checked my stomach area, I felt that his touch was normal but still because I was scared I was holding my breath and because of that I was pushing my stomach inside. He giggled because of that & I noticed it. As soon as he was done checking, he suddenly pulled the collar of my top, my tank top I was wearing inside & started peeking inside. I was so scared that I just pushed him & I jumped from the bed quickly. He started laughing & said I have liver spots on my neck-chest area!! I was mute at this time. My brain was blank, I couldn’t think anything. He asked me few questions like what I cook for meals & all that. Because I was shivering, I couldn’t speak properly. He asked me to do another blood test yet again and see him again next Wednesday. Believe me I was gathering all my strength to ask him what spots he was talking about?? I don’t have any spots on my neck area. How dare he touch my top? But I was so blank & so shocked I just left his cabin & went to do blood test.
Even while typing all this my heart is beating so fast, I am shivering again but I have made up my mind now. Next week, I am going to see him again NOT to check my blood tests results but to ask him HOW DARE HE TOUCH MY TOP WITHOUT EVEN ASKING MY PERMISSION???? WHAT SPOTS HE IS TALKING ABOUT?? I WANT HIM TO SHOW THOSE TO ME AGAIN.. I AM GOING TO CHECK WITH MY GP AS WELL IS THAT THE RIGHT WAY TO CHECK ANY PATIENT??
I am fuming inside.. Why I couldn’t do anything.. I am angry on myself.. I should have confronted him on the spot.. why I behaved like a coward!! Shii.. I was staring at every guy passing by next to me with red eyes.. All guys seemed like hungry pigs to me..Even the gentle touch of a 40 years old colleague (lady) on my shoulders was making me uncomfortable yesterday.. Every time I went to washroom I kept looking at my neck area.. feeling guilty.. feeling being used by someone for his entertainment..
For sure I will tell this Doctor that guys like you only ruin the name our country.. Not only these bastards take advantage of girls in India but they don’t leave any opportunity here in foreign land as well.. Is there any country where Indian girls could feel safe from Indian “so-called-men”??? What do these scoundrels get just by pulling a collar top & peeking inside?? Do they do like this to their Mum & sisters also every day?? Or their Dad’s do this to their Mum & sisters & daughters?? Or maybe when they get chance Dad & son duo entertain each other??
I feel sorry for myself to be born in this country.. I am ashamed of the men in my country..I know not all men are like this but many are..
For sure I am going to name & shame this doctor next Wednesday..