So, First of all I just wanted to say Happy Diwali & a prosperous New Year to all of you…
Past few days I have spend being happy sometimes and sometimes being really sad. I don’t know why these mood swings..
Sometimes I become very happy & excited that MIL & PIL are coming here, I start planning weekends with them, where we will take them on every weekend, I make lists of things I want them to eat while they are here like different types of cheeses, olives, different veggies, Lebenese bread pizzas, some dishes which they don’t cook like dal-baati, Non-veg recipes which I cook, biryanis and different types of salads and many other things, I really want them to experience our life here and enjoy their stay here with us. I want their stay to be memorable for them.
But then, suddenly I become sad, thinking of what all they have done with me while I stayed with them for just 15 days, how they will behave with me for these many days. They have not even asked me once if I need anything from India but they remember to ask this to PK & BIL every day. More than me PK feel sad about this. God promise, I don’t expect them to buy anything for me.
I become happy when they tell us that they went shopping for jeans, tees & sunnies for themselves. I feel that they are changing their mindset. Believe me they are very narrow-minded. MIL has once told me not to wear sleeveless tops when she saw my pics, I did not listened to her though.
Again I become sad when I come to know that MIL has literally said NO to my Mom when my Mom asked her if she can carry some gifts for me & PK from them, reason was that their luggage is already over weighed!! I don’t know what my Mom wanted to send to me but I know that my Mom was very happy that the in-laws will be meeting us here & seeing our house, our life style. When my Mom told MIL that she will give weightless gift to carry, my MIL agreed because she knew that weight less thing means some gold jewellery!!! MIL is hungry for gold, I am telling you..
I was happy when we went to this jewellers shop on Dhanteras and bought gold coin for pooja, then we bought sweets, some fire crackers & sweets but again I became sad, I was missing my family, we also have gold business in India, I was imagining my Dad, my uncles, my cousins everyone in the shop selling gold & silver for Dhanteras. We girls use to take diyas to shop in evening & some snacks for them to eat because they don’t get any break on that day.. I really miss those days.. I really miss my family 😦
On the job front, I was happy and satisfied with my work, they had promised me a promotion in October but when the time came they had asked me to wait for another six months now, I feel sad, I feel that I deserve better job with better pay & title but I cannot change my job now because we are thinking of baby in next few months.. I have to be in company for at least one year to be able to get the benefits of government grant & pay for one year when I go to maternity leave. So, I have no other option but to continue working here. I feel am not appreciated for my efforts & all the extra work that I am doing since more than a year 😦